even more so

hear it in the stairwell: Radiohead-OK Computer
My first day back to school was yesterday. My best friend Amanda offered to take my picture wearing a brand new backpack and shoes standing by a big yellow school bus. Maybe I should have taken her up on that- it would have made the day experience incredibly more eventful. It was a culture shock, not only being back in a classroom setting but also socializing with people my age. I had two classes, neither of which will be the least bit entertaining or informative. I don't begin my nursing courses until next week-check back and maybe then I'll be an eager mind waiting to soak up knowledge.
I also saw The Return of the King with Amanda(roomie). It was really, really good. I'm not sure I could ever sit through another theatre showing of it but I'd like to see it again on DVD when I have the option of splitting it into 4-5 smaller movies (as is necessary). It was so incredibly emotional!

Last night after small group I had a discussion with some groupers about wanting direction in life, not clearly hearing God's call and when/if you do hear it, overcoming all the obstacles it takes to follow that call. I left the conversation a little more puzzled that when it began. I'm not really sure I've ever completely struggled with these questions as MANY of the people in my age group have. Sure, I would love to see ahead and know where I'm going long-term but I feel like right now I'm just taking the steps one at a time as I see them become clearer. Am I too content with not knowing? Do I think I know where I'm going and therefore I'm not worried? Am I not REALLY hearing God's call and therefore simplifying the whole process for myself? I mean how do you REALLY know that when you make a decision it is absolutely based on a sincere heart for God's will and not just a situation that is easy and comfortable, or maybe even challenging and interesting-a situation that fits my personal wants/needs/goals?